formatting

i do realise that the pictures in the previous post are not showing properly, but i'm kinda lazy now to solve that problem. so i shall leave it as it is for the time being. will work it out when i'm more free. do bear with me! =P

life overseas

i'm missing NYC, Chicago, LA, Las Vegas, San Diego, San Francisco and even Sandusky, Ohio. but times like those cannot be at our whim and will. well, if only.

if only life could be as carefree as it was back then. no worries about your future yet. not having to think that you actually need a job to survive. as we grow older, the heavier your responsibility to support yourself (and your parents) becomes.

actually, i wldn't mind this responsibility after i had seen the world. sure, many pple wld say i'm lucky enough to have been to the states and having worked there for 3 months and travelled for another 1 month. but somehow, that doesn't seem enough. plus those 4 months wasn't without unhappiness. i'm still amazed at myself at how i could have buried my actual feelings and continued to enjoy myself and have fun. i guess i could be in huge denial if i wanted to. haha. i wonder if that is a gd or bad thing?

my next aim is to go europe! i wanna try living and working there! well, again, if only i could. we shall see if such an opportunity comes along. :)

Paris!

Rome!

Ireland!

Venice!

Spain!

London!

okay, just some of the places i want to visit! the future is awaiting! :)

1, 2, 3, 4

my current favourite song!

1, 2, 3, 4

By Plain White T's

1,2 - 1 2 3 4

give me more lovin' then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin' sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.

make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin' mad,
i'm so glad i found you.
i love bein' around you.

you make it easy, as easy as 1 2, (1 2 3 4)
there's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you,
i love you. (i love you)
there's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words,
that's what i'll do.
i love you. (i love you)

give me more lovin' from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.

make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
i'm so glad that i found you.
i love bein' around you.

you make it easy, as easy as 1 2, (1 2 3 4)
there's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you,
i love you. (i love you)
there's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words,
that's what i'll do.
i love you. (i love you)

i love you. (i love you)

you make it easy, as easy as 1 2, (1 2 3 4)
there's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you

i love you. (i love you)
there's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words
that's what i'll do.

i love you. (i love you)

i love you. (i love you)

1 2 3 4 i love you. (i love you)
i love you. (i love you)

my brother

this morning i was having breakfast with my brother. it was slightly past 9am. out of nowhere, he suddenly quipped, "i'm late for work." in a totally nonchalant way. i looked at him, looked at the time and commented, "but isn't this your usual time? you've been going to work at around this time EVERYDAY."

to which he replied in a calmly manner, "ya, that's why i'm late for work everyday".

=.="

i was like, what kind of job allows you to be late everyday?? anyway, after the short exchange above, my brother continued to slowly finish up his coffee, walk in and out of his room, dunno doing what, and finally left the house. no sense of urgency at all. wow. if it was me and i was late for work, i'll be rushing around the house like a mad rabbit. how can he still afford to take his time and behave so nonchalantly?

hmm this is probably something i can learn. haha.

a dream

i had many dreams ever since my accident. mostly involved me being able to walk and run again. i'm still waiting for that to come true. soon soon. i must be patient.

last night i had another dream. i dreamt that i flew to europe. on impulse. to escape from work. and i didn't go by myself. i went with a supposedly someone special. which i have no idea who he is when i woke up. anyway, the thing is, the moment i reached europe, i felt so guilty for not informing anyone at office and just disappearing like that, and all i wanted to do was to go back. so i won't get a black mark or what. i'm such a coward. either that, or i feel too responsible. i prefer to believe in the latter. :P

haix. my sch refuse to leave me alone even during the weekends. i've to return to sch to help them out. by right, i shld be very willing. seeing all the provisions they've made so that i can work from home, i shld be grateful. i'm obliged to help them. but right now, it's precisely the sense of obligation that i do not like. i don't want the feeling that i owe them something. perhaps i shld have gone on no-pay leave instead of agreeing to working from home. at least i won't be so haunted now. even in my sleep.

sigh. tots of leaving are still lingering in my mind. yesterday, i've just heard that another colleague may be tendering. makes me wanna leave even more. well, let's wait and see.