weddings

i know i have not been updating for a very long time. but i've no idea where my time has gone for the past few weeks. probably just too tired from work.

what happened to my "one post a day"?

okay i promise i will get back into that routine. i found it liberating, having my thoughts written out, instead of just re-thinking them over and over again in my head. sometimes you can think of something so much that it feels real to you even if it's not.

just some good news to share, i'm beginning to feel quite normal walking! so happy!! :) and i think i can probably wear heels (not the really high ones of course) for ade's wedding! yay!! :)  i'm so looking forward to her wedding as if i'm marrying away my own sister. but she has indeed been like a sister to me these few years, so i hope we can plan an unforgettable one for her! even if she thinks it's no big deal.

and i got myself some extra work to do by agreeing to be the emcee for jeff's wedding. hmm. now i'm wondering why the heck did i agree when i have stage fright?? my heart is so split into two. half of it really wants to do it (because it's just so nice to be able to do something for a friend's wedding) and the other half is just writhing in fear (suddenly got reminded of the feeling you get in the presence of the dementors in harry potter).

okay since i've agreed, i shall not look back. better than having myself to keep thinking what it would have been like if i agreed. i definitely know how it would be like if i didn't agree. i'll just appear at his wedding, have my lunch, interact with my friends, take photos, yum seng and then leave. so hopefully, this will be a good different experience! :)

"Dance like no one is watching. Sing like no one is listening. Love like you've never been hurt and live like it's heaven on Earth." — Mark Twain